Amber Alert: My Confidence
I’ve lost my confidence- have you seen it?
Somewhere between being pumped at living my life on my own after divorce and cutting my hair, it seems to have taken a sabbatical. I had it still at the end of October I think, but somewhere in the craze of the holidays, it seems to have gone AWOL.
Perhaps it’s hiding under this gained weight and stress.
Or maybe it’s just here, silently waiting for me to settle in with myself, tune out the noise, and listen to my gut.
I know the only way to bring it home is to focus on myself, practice self-care and gratitude, and remember that happiness is my choice every day.
While I work through all that, please be on the lookout for my confidence. It might be hiding with my super goal oriented drive I had in my early 20s. I’m alright with the super drive to do huge things being gone for a bit- maybe I don’t always have to be pushing for the next biggest, greatest thing- but the confident gal who pushed her way through hard stuff is sorely missed by me.
I’ll be out trying to win her back.
Please know that everyone feels like this at different times, I think it is also a culprit of the winter blues! And I can say that something changes in your 30s and you do get more comfortable with yourself. Hang in there and give yourself props for the little stuff. I know with me sometimes the more I try the less confindent I can feel, almost like I have more to lose (if that makes sense?) but just look at how far you have come. You are doing great and I love reading your blog 🙂