Motivation where are you?
I haven’t done a blog post in awhile. I’m way behind on #VEDA watching and comments on YouTube. Even my journal writing has sort of slacked off. And my personal and freelance writing is nonexistent. I’ve been a bit less motivated to write at work too.
I’d like to think the creative juices are dormant inside just marinating for some moment when they will come out of my fingers and out of the page. I often think of things that I should write about and I should take that moment to write those things down ( isn’t that what my stash of various sized journals is for?), but I don’t, and then later, I never write. I’ve just been downright lazy.
It’s not just the writing, it’s the tackling of the to do list too( though this weekend, I finally scored a new ceiling light for my sunroom). I’m blaming it on the summer and the general laze that comes with hot, humid weather. I’ve lacked discipline with just about everything- eating/cooking, walking/exercise, making plans with friends.
It’s hard to be kind to yourself when you’ve allowed yourself to be so blah for some time now and I’m sick of making excuses or trying to tell myself it will be alright, but at the same time being kind and gentle to myself to know that it’s what I need at this moment.
But is it what I need at this moment? Is being apathetic and letting myself “just be” really what I want? Of course the answer is no. I’m stuck in wanting to push forward and wanting to be mindful and present in the moment. But of course, being mindful and present doesn’t have to mean being a lump on a log.
Needless to say, I’m stuck in a rut and need to get out fast.
How do you motivate and get yourself going when laziness just feels like a better/easier option?